New home
Posted on: 2026-10-13 15:25:00
I’ve been in washyton for a couple of weeks now. It’s a bit strange… and I think seasonal depression is real now. LOL. I hoped it would magically fix me but I knew logically that wasn’t going to happen. I actually already have a job lined up due to my girlfriend, but I am scared.
I am very awkward around his family still… I feel fit to just hide in the bedroom a lot of the time, and I’m still too anxious to take walks on my own. It’s a bit rough. I’m still happy I did this, but I struggle to feel comfortable unless I am alone. I am really homesick a lot of the time and scared of integrating back into the workforce…
Im trying to work on my game again and make things in general, but I feel myself caught up in envy and rumination towards other artists again. I wish I had interesting things to say like everyone else. I wish I wasn’t evil in a mundane way. I don’t know. I wonder what worth this website holds when I’m so boring and uncreative. Do I actually like anything…? I’m not sure…
I start work tomorrow let’s hope it goes well and I can stop thinking about nonsense that doesn’t matter!!!