STARBAGE

How have things been? Well, pretty all over the place. I recently released a game on my main account after not doing so over a year. It is about feelings related to how terrible this year was. But I think it’s vague enough that anyone can relate to and enjoy it. I would love to release a longer game on starbage soon, but I don’t know if it’s in the cards right now. You may remember the project o was working on— Beneath the Teal Symphony? It’s a 3D game made in the rpgmaker MV3D engine. I do think I will complete it someday, but it’s pretty ambitious so maybe I wasn’t ready to make it yet. I dunno! I had a lot of moments of dwindling activity/lost confidence a lot during the making of HalOPE, so maybe it’ll be like that. Now that I’ve completed bigger games though I guess I feel the need to be faster. Unfortunately I’ve always been someone who does these things at my own pace which is why I can probably never open a patreon unless there’d be an audience for literally everything I draw haha

That’s not to say I’m not making anything though.. currently working on a visual novel for my evil alter ego. Should I even mention that here? Well, who cares. If you know you know. I think visual novels are just easier for me to create right now, but I’ve not thought of a premise for one that would fit the type of work I post on starbage. You know. It probably seems silly to segment myself in such a way, but it’s what makes me most comfortable I think. Heh. 

My creative motivation is in spite of a lot of despair surrounding the state of art, though. A lot of the art I wanted to create would have been profitable just a year ago but is now risky to accept payment for. How fucked up is that? And yet I can’t stop making things. In fact it makes me want to make riskier things. Even BTTS has some themes in it I don’t think payment processors will like, it’s just on a tamer side. Call it spite maybe. For me, I’ve found art is really the only way I’m able to express myself fully (this blog is something of an experiment in that regard) so I have to do it or I will explode and die forever.

Last art-related thing.. hm.. I might start taking commissions soon, because my boss is evil and cutting my hours. Commissions scare me, I’ve only done maybe one or two in the past.. I also am not confident my art will appeal to many people, or I’ll be able to draw just anyone’s chatacter.. mala suggested I do skeb-style, so I think it could be fun. I want to finish my current project first though, less I hyperfixate on the commissions and then neglect it. 

Anyway, thanks for reading.. you may know I’ve had multiple blogs in the past but I always delete them. I’m a pretty shy person you know. But I’d like to not be. I think it is difficult to make connections when you self-sabotage as much as me, and in our current fascist hellscape that’s become a little unbearable. My life is also boring, but I’ll try to yap about things I care about… stop worrying if other people see it… ok, yay. Goodbye for now