wawa
Posted on: 2026-06-16 22:17:00

Im back from vacation!

so why do i feel so tired?


family vacations stress me out immensely. there were fun moments, but there were a lot of upsetting and awkward ones too, and i dunno if i really care enough to recount all of it on my silly little blog. I had a lot of strawberry daquiris. 

honestly, now that ive been back home, it already feels like it never happened to begin with. how lovely. but time still passed by and i must suffer the consequences. how unlovely.

still stressed about working on my TYVNJ game.. i only got a month left, and yet i am uncompromising on my huge sprawling vision that i want to make all by myself. IS HE STUPID? maybe so. but i will continue working on it and hope for the best! the jam grind is like crack to me. Truth be told, i am terrified, but its hard to quantify why... Do i care about losing? well, winning would be nice, but it's not like i havent lost before... I think I am just scared of making something that isn't good as other people's stuff?! i'm not sure! creative FOMO is a bitch. 

on another note, i have hung out with friends a lot since i got home. playing a lot of repo, my obsession. it makes me happy that people like to play video games with me, even though i am loud and annoying and look back on those moments in a mortified way. 

i don't think i had a point behind writing this entry besides to confirm that i didn't die at sea. still jobless. still balling. GOOD NIGHT.